Life needs change.

CHANGE #20070115

I’ve decided to take the corporate world by the balls and make a eunuch out of it. Why does it matter how young I look, what jacket I wear, let alone a hoodie because it’s cold outside? Yeah I get dirty looks because of that. Well whoop-de-fuckin-do. Yeah, it’s cold outside. Sometimes I walk to the station so if I’m wearing a hoodie under my jacket it’s because it’s cold outside. Sorry if I don’t have a ‘proper’ wool jacket. Somehow dress clothes are NEVER practical unless you live somewhere temperate. Unless you can afford one of those new GORGEOUS Northface jackets.

Why does it matter that my hair’s in braids? Looks better than your fucking polyester suit bitch! Why must we all look the same in order to be ‘professional’? So we all have frown lines not smile lines? So we all look MISERABLE… people that are too fuckin’ lazy to open doors or walk up stairs. And then you complain that you’re fat. Well you can start by taking the stairs. Oh and if I nudge you because I’m trying to OPEN a door that you’re too lazy to open, well I’m NOT sorry. You’re in my way. Maybe your arms wouldn’t be so wobbly and you wouldn’t have the second wave. Ever think of that? I’m only going to conform so much to the world of corporatism. But hopefully I’ll never lose sight of who I am. I think I’m going to do 8-4 not 8:30-4:30 so I can avoid some of these miserable people. Plus I’ll have time to run home, grab a bite then go to practice, or school or get to work a lil bit earlier. Maybe I’ll pick up another bullshit job…

posted by: conspiracytheorist at 22:19 | link | comments (1) |

Ojiichan, ogenki desuka? Korekara mo zutto genki ni narimasuyōni. Osoika. Honto ni gomen nasai. Itsumo jibun no koto dake kangaete. Mō yonen gurai hanashitenai kana. Itsumo okozukai nanka kudasatte arigatou. Hiromidono to fūtōni kaitekurete chotto hazukashī. Zutto byōkide hōmuni ite, samishikatta deshou. Demo kanada no hōmuyori zutto ī tokorodattakara anshin shimashita. Uchi no hitowa kōiwo misenai hitodakara chotto tsumetai to omoimasukeredo kokorono nakani kanjite kuretakana? Nihongo nanka chanto tsukaenaikara tegamiwo kakunowa taihende, hazukashīwa. Yappari motto dekitara tabun nihon made itte shigotowo sagashitakamo. Itsuka dekirukana?

Hontōni gomennasai.

 

posted by: conspiracytheorist at 22:52 | link | comments |

CHANGE #20070101
I think next holiday I'm going to Iran. No Christmas and they have a different New Year. Then I don't have to deal with all this bullshit and the days would progress as they normally would... wouldn't they? Plus I'm sure it'd be a lot warmer, then maybe I'd be able to sleep better too. If I can't leave the country, then let me find a job that makes me work over the holidays so I can make some gooood money so that I can leave the next winter. Wallowing in self-pity? Probably, but I'm too fucking tired and angry to care right now.

posted by: conspiracytheorist at 09:24 | link | comments |