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Monday, 08 November 2004

CONSPIRACY THEORY #20041107

the school is out to get me. they keep referring to all these handbooks that should’ve been sent etc etc and the pink handbook regarding ‘responsibilities and good practice’ which i’ve picked up, but is relatively useless unless one has the other handbook. well, i keep asking around, and even the secretary doesn’t know what i’m talking about. huh? a lot of people in my classes seemed to know the details of due dates and stuff… what are you talking about? i don’t get it? nobody knows, yet they DO know…

so i was reading british maxim hahahaha, which incidentally had avril lavigne on the cover… don’t know why. but i was reading their list of love/hate things. well, they hate blogs because they’re supposively selfish. they gave an example of how people were killed in a bombing in somewhere in the middle east and on that same day somebody wrote a blog about, ‘wanting to end it all,’ or something to that extent. riiiiiight! and by selling a magazine about exploitation is any less selfish than a blog when there’s millions of people dying out there! quick, we all have to drop what we’re doing and save the world!!!!! hurry hurry, people are dying as we speak! go go go.

i don’t know if i’m going to articulate myself well here, but it REALLY REALLY REALLY irked me that they wrote that. of course people will write shit like that in their blogs. it’s THEIR blog, they can post what they want. likewise, maxim will print what it chooses. don’t go judging people because they’re ‘self-absorbed bastards’when you’re doing the same thing. we can’t go around wanting to ‘save the world’ as we’ll become incredibly depressed and the world seems unfathomable as an entity to be saved. who knows, maybe that ‘self-absorbed bastard’ is actually in school for something really important or someone working for médicins sans frontiers. well then why doesn’t maxim use proceeds from it’s magazine to serve a greater purpose? I HATE WHEN PEOPLE ARE JUDGEMENTAL LIKE THAT!!!!! assess the situation before you open your big mouth you turd! this is also coming from the magazine that had a little article about this REALLY disturbing website where a dude interviewed crackwhores. he’d do his interview, give them some crack/heroin and then fuck them. excuse my language, but it’s really the only word one can use to describe ummm… prostitutional transactions. people are allowed to do that kinda stuff? i don’t know if any of it was true or not, but to even THINK to print it… THAT in itself is MUCH more disturbing than someone’s ‘self-absorbed’ blog. there’s only so much that a single person can do, regardless of how much power, money and guns they have. as john q public, he’s pretty damned helpless. i’d like to think that every little thing makes a difference, maybe that’s naïve of me, maybe not. if one person decides to go on a personal campaign against something/someone and nobody knows about it, then it likely won’t be as effective as a more vocal/in-your-face approach. does it give the individual peace of mind? i sure got peace of mind when i boycotted all baguettes since i worked for them for my training and never got paid. and that was when i was still young and stupid and didn’t think to persist and go to the labour board.

so i was awoken last night by firecrackers at 3:30am. someone probably had leftovers from guy fawkes night and used them up. so pretty. and then they set some more off at 7am… pretty useless in the daylight. i switched the direction of my bed in attempts to hear less snoring… that was wishful thinking. but i think i’ll keep it like that anyway.

NEWSFLASH!!!!! i was able to find a good cuppa coffee. AND it’s fairtrade coffee… it’s 85p, but it was SO good.

agent orange

posted by: conspiracytheorist at 15:43 | link | comments (4) |

Comments:

#1 09 November 2004 - 08:13

nicolita we miss you sooo much. Sue's party (err, I mean, Wayne's party) was very nice but no you was a very noticeable gap. I missed your ringing laugh in the background. It was so sweet to hear your voice though.

Don't get aristocratic on us, now, dearie.

Tataaa!