Life needs change.

CONSPIRACY THEORY #20050815    

so it seems that u of t’s library system has a personal vendetta against me. i’m still writing my freakin’ thesis, and i decided to head downtown today to look for other stuff that might help supplement my writing. i’m ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS short of the word count. i don’t understand how people can go over. hahahaha. anyhow, the book that i was looking for is naturally MISSING. like the other book that i wanted on connoisseurship. yesh, i can spell that word withtout thinking now thank you very much. i think there was another book that was missing too… of course. stupid library. what have i ever done to you? i’ve always praised you. is it because i had too much pride to let you take money away from me for overdue fines, so i always brought them back in time?

nostalgia. funny how it hits you. like friday night. the bass player had his music stand adjusted in a way that it was flat like a tabletop. i looked over to mel and said, ‘hey look, miss hart would have a fit if she saw that!’ and we thought of how naice it was that their music stands actually stood straight, with uncurled edges and they didn’t sway or stand crookedly. the only ‘what if’ that i think of at these times is, what if i DID go to u of t for music performance in the clarinet? i don’t regret studying what i’ve studied, cuz that’d be retarded. and i likely wouldn’t have gotten into dragon boating and met all these amazing people, but still… i wonder. i miss playing the clarinet with other people. i miss being so lost in the music that nothing else matters. although i suspect that it’s what caused my scoliosis. because i didn’t sit up properly. anyhow, i miss it. but i also want to learn how to play the violin, or cello. that’d be awesome. taiko was fun, wish i had the money to continue. it was so inspiring to have chris as my teacher. he was SO devoted to music that he gave up a lot for it. but he had to stop because of injuries. i wonder what he’s up to now…

so this is kinda mean, but i saw this girl on the subway on the way home and she looked like marjorie from ‘little britain’. and for those not in the know, ‘little britain’ is a HILARIOUS kids in the hall-type show. and they’re SO funny and creative, there’s i think 3 guys that play ALL the characters. anyhow, marjorie is actually one of the men in drag. she’s runs the fat fighters program. http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/littlebritain/characters/characters10.shtml. i LOVE the show. it’s on at 10pm wednesday nights on showcase… not like i watch it religiously or anything. my friends karl and christian in the uk introduced me to it. i miss everyone there. i wonder how they’re all doing? i just got an e-mail from christian. yaaaay! and he’s apparently staying in the uk. strange man. hahahahaa.

*sigh. my FAVOURITEST (yes, it’s a word in my nictionary!) show in the world is now over. i can’t believe it’s been on for 5 freakin’ years! yes, i am part of the demographic of straight women that watches ‘queer as folk’. it was the only show that i’d watch religiously. like, if i missed the 10pm, then i’d stay up to watch it later in the wee hours of the morning since showcase repeats some shows in the same night. anyhow, the ending was kind of anti-climactic, but not. hahaha, michael used to call me a fag hag because of it, but we’d ALWAYS talk about the latest epi at work like teenagers. i miss you michael wherever you are. i hoped you liked the last episode and i hope you found your one and only out there. love you.

agent orange

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