Life needs change.

CHANGE #20060105/08

my sleep deprivation MUST STOP! i sorta dozed off among the filing cabinets whilst volunteering at the ago library today. not like it woulda really mattered since it’s SO relaxed there, but because it would’ve been alarming to whomever it was that found me asleep, in the fetal position on the floor. hahaha, it’s comfy!

once in a while i have to actually see an exhibit or just wander through a gallery to regain that sense of ‘self’ and ‘direction’ as to what i studied, what i care about, and what i want to do. i went to the catherine the great exhibit at the ago at the end of december and was blown away. not only was i able to breeze past the lineup and be one of the first 25 people in, (volunteering has it’s perks) but i usually HATE going to ‘blockbuster’ exhibits at museums. i find them to be over-hyped and WAY too busy. this one however was awesome because they limited the number of people inside, and well it was a jolly good time. the flow and spacing of the objects was well done. there was an astounding number of objects, but then again the hermitage is HUGE and has SO MANY things in it. it would take me years just to get through it from beginning to end. well, anyhow this exhibit restored my faith in the arts. normally while i’m volunteering i don’t actually get to see the exhibits, but i made the effort since the hermitage is a long way off.

spent the rest of the day with stephie. i realized that it was thursday and i was supposed to catch a movie with katykins, but well… i’ve been so retarded lately that it didn’t click until after i got off the phone with stephie. but the movie times were bad, and me and katy didn’t finalize our plans… well… umm… yeah. sorry katykins.

discovering the true nature of the store manager wasn’t the greatest thing in the world, but at least i know what i’m up against. and what i will be leaving behind one day soon i hope. well if anything, i’ll just keep it as a part-time job at least until i’m financially stable, which i am FAR from right now.

why are ALL my woes about money? why do i keep thinking that if i have enough money that i can move out, stop stressing lalalala. but if i’m in the next tax bracket (HA!) then i’ll have bigger worries. and then aww fuck it. why bother? i know in the end that i’m only good with small money and not big money because i don’t quite see the BIG picture. oh well. Keep It Simple Stupid!

i’ve been craving/eating crap food lotses these days. more so than over the holidays when the foods are readily available. i think it has to do with my sleep deprivation/depression/general blah-ness. i want to start working out again, but i have no monies. lame lame lame, but true. this time next year i want to be living somewhere that’s not scarborough.

met up with high school people friday night. holyshit zunaid is married?!?!?!?!?!? some of these characters i haven’t seen since graduating, so it was shocking to introduce myself to zun’s wifey. it was good to see them though. but so so so strange. anyhow, there’s some crazy news going through my head since i heard on friday. why is my font so tiny once i cut 'n' paste?!?!?!?!

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